Riku Gulabchand Shah

1977 - 2006
LocationStockton On Tees
Age29 years
Date of Birth8/1977
Date of Death11/2006
Visitors5,288 since 25/01/2007
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Riku died on november 15th 2006 he comitted suicide by jumping in the river tees. He was 29 years
old. Riku was a wonderful gentle person who was loved so much by everyone who ever met him. He
meant the world to me and our 3 children Daniel aged 15 Kane aged 11 and Bradley aged 7 at the time
of his death our boys were aged 14, 10 and 6. From 15th november when Riku died mine and our kids
lives have been turned upside down. Riku was such a quiet guy who wouldn't say no to anyone
that was his nature always kind and would bend over backwards to help anyone if only he had spoke to
me and let me know his problems then maybe he would be here with me n the boys today. Riku was born
in leicester and moved to london when he was 5 yrs old. In December 2002 when riku was 24 yrs old he
moved to stockton on tees to be with us permanently. Riku only lived in stockton for 5 years but he
touched so many people's hearts over 200 people attended his funeral traffic was stopped to let
the hearse and limousines through there was so many cars all full of people paying their last
respect to him. Out of that 200 people maybe a dozen were from london. Riku's best friend
Justin Ali came from london to attend his funeral he was best man at our wedding which was one of
the best days in my life and he is one of very few of Riku's friends who stay in touch to see
how were doing. As u can see by the picture my husband was asian and i am white. I thought i was
accepted by his family cos we visited his family and stayed with them from time to time but when my
darling husband passed away his family shunned me only two members of his family turned up for his
funeral his uncle and his brother. I don't know how his mother sleeps at night not knowing
where her son is buried.Since my husband passed away his family have not been in contact with me
which is disgusting cos riku chose to share his life with me and our children. Even though we only
lived together for 5 yrs and married for almost 4 yrs, i will treasure those years forever. His
family have showed him no respect in his death what so ever but we were his family and riku knew
that he called my mam, mam my dad, dad and my brother , bro. He was such a wonderful and loving
husband, much loved dad and son in law and brother. Riku loved nothing more than being with us he
didnt go out with mates down the pub his life was me and the kids which makes how he ended his life
even harder to deal with because he never showed that he was depressed or that he wanted to end his
life. That morning on 15th november 2006 when C.I.D knocked on my door at approx 5:50AM to tell me
they had pulled my babe(thats what we called each other) out of the river was the worst day of my
life the pain i felt and am still feeling is unreal and my poor boys they heard the tragic details
as when the police came the knockin at the door woke them our youngest bradley who is just 7 yrs old
ran to the bathroom and vomitted violently. We will never know why he did this to us.He was a real
quiet man but me and the kids were his life. He loved to do the homework with the boys every nite
that was one thing he insisted he do and im sure he will be laughing at me trying to help them now.
Our children adored him we are all finding this so hard its like a big piece has gone from our
lives. We will love you forever and never ever forget you, you were one in a million babe sleep tite
love you xx


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missing you

What was on your mind that night
Why did u feel so low
Were you unhappy
Did you really want to go
Did you know how much me and the boys loved you
Did you know how much we'd cry
Did you know we'll spend forever
Asking ourselves why
Love you forever and ever sleep tite Debbie and your 3 sons Daniel, Kane and Bradley

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 27, 2007

thankyou so much debbie for the lovely kind words you wrote on my Ian's page...you have written some lovely poems here...I am thinking about you, take care dear of yourself at this terrible time ...love sheila

Sheila Mum To Ian And Wife Of Trev (united by grief) January 27, 2007

my son Ian died in the same way I mean he took his own life, sadly he had mental health issues though...I knnow just how terrible and traumatic it is for you and it is such a shock, please know I am here for you and thinking of you...love sheila

Sheila Mum To Ian And Wife Of Trev (passerby) January 26, 2007

for debbie

When tomorrow starts without him
just try to understand
that an angel came and called his name
and took him by the hand
and said your place was ready
in heaven far above
and that you'd have to leave behind
all those you dearly loved.

Why? did you want to die you had so much to live for
and so much yet to do,
it seem's impossible
that Debbie has to live without you.

Riku you have been so faithful
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things
you knew you shouldn't do.

So when tomorrow starts without him
don't think your far apart
cos everythime you think of him
he's right here, in your heart

Love you loads always here Jane and Shaun X x X x

Jane (Friend) January 26, 2007

a place in my heart

There's a place in my heart only for u
Whenever im sad that's the place i go to
I remember the love you and i shared
I think of the time when once you cared
Isn't my love what you felt?
Didn't you know when you were near
my heart would melt
I guess not because your not here
You took your own life without a care
Now at night, sometimes i cry
Until all of my tears have run dry
Why did u have to leave?
The only thing i can do now is grieve
You left me without saying goodbye
Still i love will you until the day i die x x x

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 25, 2007

miss you

i miss you in the morning babe
when all the world is new
i know my day can bring no joy
because it brings not you

i miss your hand beside my own
the light touch of your hand
the quick gleam in the eyes of you
so sure to understand

i miss you in the evening babe
when daylight fades away
i miss the sheltering arms of you
to rest me from the day
i try to think i see you
there where the fire gleams
weary, at, last i sleep
and see you in my dreams
love you forever and ever your heartbroken babe

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 25, 2007

so sorry about your loss

i just want to offer my condolences to you and your family. i remember when i went home and heard about your husband. i am so sorry it is so hard i have been through the same with my partner and mam. he will be looking over you and your kids keeping you safe. he is in a much nicer place now cause this world is not a nice place anymore. i can imagine what it will be like when our kids are older. take care of yourself and your family. im thinking of you all at this sad time god-bless R.I.P riku look after your family dont let any harm come to them.

Kerry Wheater January 25, 2007

goodbye

I still remember the day you died
When i found out i cried and cried
It felt like a nightmare gone totally wrong
The last few weeks have felt so long
baby you were my life my lover my heart WHY

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 25, 2007

Forgive

I remember the day like yesterday
When i looked into your heart
I thought i saw forever
But forever fell apart
I never knew this day would come
Not in a million years That i would be sitting here without you
To wipe away my tears

I never believed you'd kill yourself
I thought it was a joke
Until the police woke me up
And my heart leapt to my throat
Nobody understands what happened
Nobody really knows why
You were the only one who knew
That you wanted to die

I have told myself it's meant o be
But i know that it's a lie
The thought of living without you
Still makes me cry

So im sitting here without you
10 weeks since that day
The day the man i was meant to love
Went so very far away
i will love and miss you forever babe x x x

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 25, 2007
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