| Location | Stockton On Tees |
| Age | 29 years |
| Date of Birth | 8/1977 |
| Date of Death | 11/2006 |
| Visitors | 5,287 since 25/01/2007 |
| Creator |
Riku died on november 15th 2006 he comitted suicide by jumping in the river tees. He was 29 years
old. Riku was a wonderful gentle person who was loved so much by everyone who ever met him. He
meant the world to me and our 3 children Daniel aged 15 Kane aged 11 and Bradley aged 7 at the time
of his death our boys were aged 14, 10 and 6. From 15th november when Riku died mine and our kids
lives have been turned upside down. Riku was such a quiet guy who wouldn't say no to anyone
that was his nature always kind and would bend over backwards to help anyone if only he had spoke to
me and let me know his problems then maybe he would be here with me n the boys today. Riku was born
in leicester and moved to london when he was 5 yrs old. In December 2002 when riku was 24 yrs old he
moved to stockton on tees to be with us permanently. Riku only lived in stockton for 5 years but he
touched so many people's hearts over 200 people attended his funeral traffic was stopped to let
the hearse and limousines through there was so many cars all full of people paying their last
respect to him. Out of that 200 people maybe a dozen were from london. Riku's best friend
Justin Ali came from london to attend his funeral he was best man at our wedding which was one of
the best days in my life and he is one of very few of Riku's friends who stay in touch to see
how were doing. As u can see by the picture my husband was asian and i am white. I thought i was
accepted by his family cos we visited his family and stayed with them from time to time but when my
darling husband passed away his family shunned me only two members of his family turned up for his
funeral his uncle and his brother. I don't know how his mother sleeps at night not knowing
where her son is buried.Since my husband passed away his family have not been in contact with me
which is disgusting cos riku chose to share his life with me and our children. Even though we only
lived together for 5 yrs and married for almost 4 yrs, i will treasure those years forever. His
family have showed him no respect in his death what so ever but we were his family and riku knew
that he called my mam, mam my dad, dad and my brother , bro. He was such a wonderful and loving
husband, much loved dad and son in law and brother. Riku loved nothing more than being with us he
didnt go out with mates down the pub his life was me and the kids which makes how he ended his life
even harder to deal with because he never showed that he was depressed or that he wanted to end his
life. That morning on 15th november 2006 when C.I.D knocked on my door at approx 5:50AM to tell me
they had pulled my babe(thats what we called each other) out of the river was the worst day of my
life the pain i felt and am still feeling is unreal and my poor boys they heard the tragic details
as when the police came the knockin at the door woke them our youngest bradley who is just 7 yrs old
ran to the bathroom and vomitted violently. We will never know why he did this to us.He was a real
quiet man but me and the kids were his life. He loved to do the homework with the boys every nite
that was one thing he insisted he do and im sure he will be laughing at me trying to help them now.
Our children adored him we are all finding this so hard its like a big piece has gone from our
lives. We will love you forever and never ever forget you, you were one in a million babe sleep tite
love you xx
hi baby, wanted to cum n say hi, to u, i wanted to cum to the cemetary n see you but it's 01;31am n it wud be dangerous babe i know you watch over me and think my life has moved on and yes it has but it don't make my heartache any less. You were my soulmate and i don't think i will ever find another one like you. I have had 3 weeks off work now for depression i dont feel depressed but doctor thinks i am cos my sleeping pattern messed up, i have lost 2 stone in weight, my eczema is out of control it's flaring up in places i have never had it, and all i wanna do is sleep which aint like me at all you will know that babe i used to be happy on 7 hrs a night, now im sleepin 10hrs n i still need more. Babe im mashed up im not myself at all but im gonna be strong for our boys and beat this depression for you i love you loads n loads n no matter what i do i will never stop loving you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx sweet dreams baby
hello
Dear debbie not been on here for such a long time, finding it hard to go on on other peoples sites and see the same heartbreak, it all seems so pointless, All these people who are dying on the inside and all so wrapped up in grief.
Just wanted to let you know you are allways in our thoughts and I wish we could all go back to when wecould get up every day without this burden left hanging over us.
Riku and our ste would not have done what they did knowing the life sentence we live with, i hope now they are truely at rest.
My love always janine xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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To some the pain of living
Becomes to much to bear,
He chose to end his life
But that does'nt mean he didn't care.
The blanket of depression
Shrouds the mind in misery,
And suffocating blackness
Is all that he could see.
Please know, though you are grieving
There was nothing you could do,
He chose this way to end his pain
Not to end his life with you.
Let tears wash away your anger
Allow your aching heart to grieve,
He found his peace in Heaven
It was just his time to leave..
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Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
NATIONAL SUICIDE AWARENESS DAY 16th April 2008
So sorry
I was saddened to read about the death of your husband Riku. Why? you'll ask yourself that a million times over the years. We'll never know why and never understand it. Such a handsome man and obviously you both loved each other very much. Watch over your sons. Sometimes they take it a lot harder than us adults. Watch them. At their ages they dont fully understand, as we do as adults. God bless you and your children. My nephew commited suicide only last year. He is on GTS too (christopher Thompson) 25yrs old, and we dont know why.love sent to you all.
hey baby sorry i havnt been visiting yr site dnt mean i forgot u, i wil never 4get u. I feel bad cos i havn't even been to visit yr grave for few weeks at the minute i cant it's breakin my heart and im scared. Hope you understandin up there, the boys are playin up a little cos they miss you so much and they are gettin angry, Kane and Bradley fighting non stop. Im gonna get flowers this morning though and cum and sit with you, i want to be close to you but it scares me cos once i get to the cemetary i cant bare to leave you there, the feeling of turning or sayin bye n leavin you cracks me up but i will come and see you babes love you loads xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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My heart feel's oh so empty
It's shattered, Broke in two,
There's nothing that can mend it
It broke when i lost you.
So my heart will just stay broken
For all my living day's,
I will always love & miss you
In a hundred million way's..
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♥ღ♥ Gone Only To Others by Ann Holloway ♥ღ♥
Others, who do not know,
Tiptoe around your name
Unaware that your name is silently
Written on my heart, my soul, my life
And inwardly I cry out to hear it spoken.
Others who do not know
Think of you as only in the past
And believe
That you only exist in my past too
Not understanding that you are
Past, Present, Future.
Others, who do not know,
Feel you as gone,
And fail to see the reality of you
Never being ‘truly’ gone from me.
The empty void of your absence
Is filled with your presence,
Your life will forever weave through mine
The divine bond cannot be severed.
Others who do not know,
Mistakenly may think that my love has been
Weakened by separation,
Feelings ceased,
Not so.
Entwined and strengthened
My love for you lives on
And has not died with death.
But you know all this,
If only others knew.
life is hard without you !
Missing you more with each new day
and trying to be brave.....
Thinking of our happy times
and all the love you gave....
Feeling very grateful
for the dreams we saw come true
for every lovely thing we shared
and most of all for you....
Treasuring each memory
that keeps you ever near....
Remembering familiar things
and wishing you were here.
Lifes very hard without you
but thats is the price to pay
for all the shared and precious times
grief cannot take away.
love to you and the boys debbie and thanks xxxxx
hi baby hope yr ok up there, we still miss u so much and wil for the rest of our lives. It's our Kane's birthday today he's 12 years old watch over him baby and keep his spirits up cos it aint the same without you here, you always made a big fuss for the kids birthdays you were more excited than the kids were. It's a happy day but also a sad one as your not here with us, i bought him a nintendo ds for his birthday and im gonna take the kids out for a meal tonight for his b/day sleep tightly sweetie love you loads n loads xxxxxx i wil cum and visit you over weekend and lay you sum more flowers xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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