Riku Gulabchand Shah

1977 - 2006
LocationStockton On Tees
Age29 years
Date of Birth8/1977
Date of Death11/2006
Visitors5,288 since 25/01/2007
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Riku died on november 15th 2006 he comitted suicide by jumping in the river tees. He was 29 years
old. Riku was a wonderful gentle person who was loved so much by everyone who ever met him. He
meant the world to me and our 3 children Daniel aged 15 Kane aged 11 and Bradley aged 7 at the time
of his death our boys were aged 14, 10 and 6. From 15th november when Riku died mine and our kids
lives have been turned upside down. Riku was such a quiet guy who wouldn't say no to anyone
that was his nature always kind and would bend over backwards to help anyone if only he had spoke to
me and let me know his problems then maybe he would be here with me n the boys today. Riku was born
in leicester and moved to london when he was 5 yrs old. In December 2002 when riku was 24 yrs old he
moved to stockton on tees to be with us permanently. Riku only lived in stockton for 5 years but he
touched so many people's hearts over 200 people attended his funeral traffic was stopped to let
the hearse and limousines through there was so many cars all full of people paying their last
respect to him. Out of that 200 people maybe a dozen were from london. Riku's best friend
Justin Ali came from london to attend his funeral he was best man at our wedding which was one of
the best days in my life and he is one of very few of Riku's friends who stay in touch to see
how were doing. As u can see by the picture my husband was asian and i am white. I thought i was
accepted by his family cos we visited his family and stayed with them from time to time but when my
darling husband passed away his family shunned me only two members of his family turned up for his
funeral his uncle and his brother. I don't know how his mother sleeps at night not knowing
where her son is buried.Since my husband passed away his family have not been in contact with me
which is disgusting cos riku chose to share his life with me and our children. Even though we only
lived together for 5 yrs and married for almost 4 yrs, i will treasure those years forever. His
family have showed him no respect in his death what so ever but we were his family and riku knew
that he called my mam, mam my dad, dad and my brother , bro. He was such a wonderful and loving
husband, much loved dad and son in law and brother. Riku loved nothing more than being with us he
didnt go out with mates down the pub his life was me and the kids which makes how he ended his life
even harder to deal with because he never showed that he was depressed or that he wanted to end his
life. That morning on 15th november 2006 when C.I.D knocked on my door at approx 5:50AM to tell me
they had pulled my babe(thats what we called each other) out of the river was the worst day of my
life the pain i felt and am still feeling is unreal and my poor boys they heard the tragic details
as when the police came the knockin at the door woke them our youngest bradley who is just 7 yrs old
ran to the bathroom and vomitted violently. We will never know why he did this to us.He was a real
quiet man but me and the kids were his life. He loved to do the homework with the boys every nite
that was one thing he insisted he do and im sure he will be laughing at me trying to help them now.
Our children adored him we are all finding this so hard its like a big piece has gone from our
lives. We will love you forever and never ever forget you, you were one in a million babe sleep tite
love you xx


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why oh why babe. Im sat here in tears again listening to these songs on yr site that i had played at yr funeral almost 15 mnth on n the pain is still so bad the kids n i miss u so much. It wa s our dan's 16th b/day last week n my 31st n it was horrible without you celebrations are just not the same especially for the kids cos all they want is their dad, it's our little Bradley's b/day on sunday he gonna be 8 yrs old. I so wish we hadn't argued that night baby never in a million yrs did i think you wud do this to us i will never forgive myself it was a silly argument over nothing. I will love you till the day i die babes n no one wil eva replace you. Not many asian guys stand up to their families n say they love a white girl n move 260 mile to be with us like u did babe like that sayin goes you dont know what u got till its gone. WOW do i know that now but its too late you were my soulmate babes n i will 4eva love you and miss you sleep tite watch over us baby xxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) February 1, 2008

You meant so much to all of us,
You were so special and thats no lie,
You brightened up the darkest day,
And the cloudiest sky.

Your smile alone warmed hearts,
Your laugh like music to hear,
We would give absolutely anything
To have you well and standing near.

Not a second passes,
When your not on our minds,
Your love we will never forget,
The hurt will ease in time.

Many tears i have seen and cried,
They have poured out like rain,
We know that you are happy now,
And no longer in any pain

love you loads babe always n forever debbie n our 3 sons daniel, kane and bradley xxxxxxxxxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 29, 2008

hiya babes how are you up there im still missin you like crazy. it's my birthday today im 31 hehehe been out with my mum for lunch n that to take my mind of things as this b/day for me is my 1st proper one without u as last years b/day i was still numb after losing you the way i did. Im going round my mates tonite all the girls are meetin up n havin a drink otherwise i'll only sit at home n think What if? and WHY? I hope one day babe my heart will heal i had so much i wanted to say to you now i can only say it at yr grave but i dnt get answers back love you so much baby i will never ever 4get you xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 24, 2008

An angel kissed my tears away
today when I was sad
I wasn't feeling quite myself
my day had been so bad

I felt a warmth brush by me
that quickly dried my tears

A gentle, kind, & loving touch
that seemed to hold me near.

Immediately, I felt so much better
& the day seemed brighter too

I guess that's just the way you feel
when an Angel comforts you.

Barbara Richard Littles Mum (GTS Special Friend) January 22, 2008

hiya beautiful hope yr okay and yr eyes are still shining bright up there. We still miss u so much and crave 4 u everyday, life just aint the same even down to the kids homework lol u always did it wiv em, im hopeless. It's our eldest son's 16th birthday today babe hope u been watchin over him cos he been kinda down today. love you loads n loads and always will. Fourteen months down the line babes and i still ask myself every single day WHY? sleep tite babe xxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 22, 2008

for you Debbie

If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you
And share with you it's beauty
On the days you're feeling blue...

If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own
A place to find serenity
A place to be alone...

If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea
But all these things i'm finding
Are impossible for me...

I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair
But let me be what I know best
A friend whos always there...

Months have grown day by day,
I can't believe it's true.
It's now 14 months since you went away,
A whole 14 months without you.
It was a painful parting,
Too painful to forget.
Those who love you dearly,
Are the one's who don't forget.
Loving you is easy,
I do it everyday.
Missing you is heartache,
That never goes away.
I'll hold you tight,
within my heart.
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you.
BUT IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME
my heart is broken babes without you xxxxxxx sweet dreams

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 22, 2008

on the horizon

A ship sails and I stand watching till he fades on the horizon and someone at my side says 'he is gone'.

Gone where? Gone from my sight, that is all. he is just as large now as when I last saw him. His diminished size and total loss from my sight is in me, not in him.

And just at the moment when someone at my side says he is gone there are others who are watching him coming over their horizon and other voices take up a glad shout 'There he comes!'

That is what dying is. An horizon and just the limit of our sight.

Lift us up, Oh Lord, that we may see further.

Sheila Mum To Ian And Wife Of Trev (friend) January 16, 2008

Lots of love to you Debbie,I understand how hard it is.I lost my precious brother 14th Sept.2006,he literally stepped off the top of a car park.Why?We had no prior warning at all it just came as a total shock.I miss Pete every single day and it just doesnt get easier.What a very handsome man Riku was!Stunning eyes!!I can see why you are so proud of him. Love and God Bless. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Joy Kortbeek (GTS friend.) January 10, 2008

hiya babe, hope yr well up there. God i miss you so much i would give anything to have you back here with me and the boys, i got mine and the boys birthdays in the next 4 weeks, our Dan is going to be 16 next week. 2day is my beloved nanna's 10th year memorial i miss you both so much. as u know i was so close to my nanna, please giv each other a hug up there and tell her i love her loads. Look after each other sweet dreams both of you sleep tite xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 7, 2008
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