Riku Gulabchand Shah

1977 - 2006
LocationStockton On Tees
Age29 years
Date of Birth8/1977
Date of Death11/2006
Visitors5,288 since 25/01/2007
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Riku died on november 15th 2006 he comitted suicide by jumping in the river tees. He was 29 years
old. Riku was a wonderful gentle person who was loved so much by everyone who ever met him. He
meant the world to me and our 3 children Daniel aged 15 Kane aged 11 and Bradley aged 7 at the time
of his death our boys were aged 14, 10 and 6. From 15th november when Riku died mine and our kids
lives have been turned upside down. Riku was such a quiet guy who wouldn't say no to anyone
that was his nature always kind and would bend over backwards to help anyone if only he had spoke to
me and let me know his problems then maybe he would be here with me n the boys today. Riku was born
in leicester and moved to london when he was 5 yrs old. In December 2002 when riku was 24 yrs old he
moved to stockton on tees to be with us permanently. Riku only lived in stockton for 5 years but he
touched so many people's hearts over 200 people attended his funeral traffic was stopped to let
the hearse and limousines through there was so many cars all full of people paying their last
respect to him. Out of that 200 people maybe a dozen were from london. Riku's best friend
Justin Ali came from london to attend his funeral he was best man at our wedding which was one of
the best days in my life and he is one of very few of Riku's friends who stay in touch to see
how were doing. As u can see by the picture my husband was asian and i am white. I thought i was
accepted by his family cos we visited his family and stayed with them from time to time but when my
darling husband passed away his family shunned me only two members of his family turned up for his
funeral his uncle and his brother. I don't know how his mother sleeps at night not knowing
where her son is buried.Since my husband passed away his family have not been in contact with me
which is disgusting cos riku chose to share his life with me and our children. Even though we only
lived together for 5 yrs and married for almost 4 yrs, i will treasure those years forever. His
family have showed him no respect in his death what so ever but we were his family and riku knew
that he called my mam, mam my dad, dad and my brother , bro. He was such a wonderful and loving
husband, much loved dad and son in law and brother. Riku loved nothing more than being with us he
didnt go out with mates down the pub his life was me and the kids which makes how he ended his life
even harder to deal with because he never showed that he was depressed or that he wanted to end his
life. That morning on 15th november 2006 when C.I.D knocked on my door at approx 5:50AM to tell me
they had pulled my babe(thats what we called each other) out of the river was the worst day of my
life the pain i felt and am still feeling is unreal and my poor boys they heard the tragic details
as when the police came the knockin at the door woke them our youngest bradley who is just 7 yrs old
ran to the bathroom and vomitted violently. We will never know why he did this to us.He was a real
quiet man but me and the kids were his life. He loved to do the homework with the boys every nite
that was one thing he insisted he do and im sure he will be laughing at me trying to help them now.
Our children adored him we are all finding this so hard its like a big piece has gone from our
lives. We will love you forever and never ever forget you, you were one in a million babe sleep tite
love you xx


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A heart can feel so many things,
That words can never say,
The sadness that everday brings,
Will never go away.

So much in life has altered babe,
So much in life is new,
But one thing never changes,
My love and thoughts of you.

So when im feeling lonely,
And tears are in my eyes,
I think of you at rest,
And i know i should not cry.

So i try to hide my heartache,
As you would want me too,
So when i shed a tear,
No one knows but you.

love you 4eva and eva u will never leave my heart xxxxxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 7, 2008

If we could visit heaven,
And be with you today,
Maybe for the moment,
The pain would go away,
We'd put our arms
around you,
And whisper words so true,
That living life without you,
Is so very hard to do .
Love Barbara xxx

Barbara Richard Littles Mum (GTS Special Friend) January 5, 2008

well babes 5 days into the new year. 5 days already gone where does time go. Kids love their new consoles what i got em for xmas just one thing missing still and that's my husband back and the boys dad back. I know that will never happen and it still breask my heart. My new job is going well i'm now supervisor in sainsbury's hope u proud of me and the boys we do our best for you hope u still watchin over us and your ok up there love you loads n loads and always will xxxxxxxxxxx sleep tite babes

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) January 5, 2008

When I look at this lovely young handsome man with a beautiful family it is hard to make sense of this world and the trouble that is visited on some souls. Rest in peace Riku
xxx

Bernadette Mullen January 3, 2008

It's been a whole 13 months dad since we last seen your smile,
It's been a whole 13 months dad since we 1st asked that question,
WHY?
Why,We miss you dad your smile and your touch,
and we want you to know that we love you very much.
But we no your always there,
When we look at the stars above.
Because we know your the brightest one shining,
Sending all of our love,
We will always remember you dad,
You will always be in our hearts,
The memories we have of you,
We know we will never be far apart.

night dad we will always love you from Daniel, Kane and Bradley xxxxxxxxxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) December 29, 2007

~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~
In my home there is a photo
Of a face more precious than gold,
And to those who love and lost you
your memory will never grow old.

Today I look at your photo
At your face so loving and true,
No wonder my heart is breaking
Losing someone as precious as you.

But each day you walk beside me
And when my life is through,
I pray that god will take my hand
And lead me straight to you..
~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~ ♥ ~~

Diane Blackburn (Friend xx) December 29, 2007

well baby xmas was horrible kids were happy they got all what they asked for, but we was all sad we all cried at the cemetary on xmas morning it's just horrible without u i cant even begin to xplain how hard it is just wish u was still ere but i know no matter how much i wish it aint gonna cum true love u loads n miss u 4eva xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) December 26, 2007

Our 2nd xmas without u dad,
As we get through xmas
our thoughts will be with u

You always made xmas the best we ever knew
I only we could see u just for a little while,
To wish you happy xmas,
and see yr lovely smile.

Instead we visit your resting place,
Your flowers we place with care,
But no one knows the heartache as we turn and leave u there

merry xmas up in heaven dad we love u loads xxxxxxxxxxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) December 25, 2007

Happy Christmas xx

Hello Debbie, thank you so much for your lovely, beautiful messages on my Dad's site, it was so kind and thoughtful of you, thanks xx
Well if i can, wish you a Happy Christmas, as best as you can make of it anyway. I know it must be tough for you but i'm sorry there's nothing i can say or do, to take away the hurt.
Debbie i must go now, sorry it's short but it's just gone 3am and i'm knackered!!!!
Take care, i'll be back soon. Take care of yourself and your boys. xxxx Best wishes to all of you, thinking of you all xxxx

Sarah M December 25, 2007

well babes, its christmas eve 07;45am and im just gettin ready for work. Kids are gettin all excited now me well u know im dreading it already had a cry this morning, were going to stay with my brother tonight so that were not waking up on our own in the morning. Once kids have opened their presents and i get em ready we will cum and see u bring you sum flowers this is all we can give you this christmas. I so wish u was still here raising the kids while grieving is so tough our dan is gonna be 16 nxt mnth and he is so angry at what u did but cos im the only one here it cums out on me. Kane is almost 12 and well kane is kane he just plods on, little bradley bless he is almost 8 he cries for u a lot while hes in his bed or should i say our bed cos he has slept with me since u died. Anyway babe enjoy xmas up in heaven watch over us keep us safe i will love you 4eva sweet dreams xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Debbie Wife Of Riku Shah (Wife) December 24, 2007
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